{"author":"J.M. Northup","author_id":"J.M.+Northup","total_quotes":5,"quotes":[{"text":"I wanted more than anything to connect to someone. I wanted to feel alive again. I just felt dead inside. I could understand how some people just gave up. This darkness was overwhelming.","author":"J.M. Northup","tags":["connect","darkness","hope"],"id":1140,"author_id":"J.M.+Northup"},{"text":"Perhaps I really was disillusioned; unable to see myself for who, and what, I really was. Maybe I really was an ungrateful wretch who just refused to take responsibility for my own actions. Maybe I was lying to myself because I didn’t want to admit to being a bad person. Maybe….","author":"J.M. Northup","tags":["doubt","lying","truth"],"id":261226,"author_id":"J.M.+Northup"},{"text":"What did that say about me? Had I become one of the monsters I thought I was fighting?“Things didn’t have to be like this,” I commented. “He could’ve made different choices.","author":"J.M. Northup","tags":["choices","monsters"],"id":364755,"author_id":"J.M.+Northup"},{"text":"My step-dad’s rendition of events was uncontested even by me and therefore, it became our truth. Truth I’d never be able to prove or change; truth that protected him from suspicion and penalty. Truth that I now knew was a lie.","author":"J.M. Northup","tags":["lie","perspective","truth","version"],"id":395199,"author_id":"J.M.+Northup"},{"text":"Just because we live in a world of chaos and madness doesn’t mean we have to subscribe to that sort of behavior.","author":"J.M. Northup","tags":["behavior"],"id":426689,"author_id":"J.M.+Northup"}],"pagination":{"page":1,"page_size":10,"total":5,"pages":1}}